So, it's been awhile since I have written a post on here. I guess I thought, because there is no one who reads this blog, there is no reason to write on a regular basis. However, the real reason that I started the blog was to get my thoughts out of my head. On the screen they are more real. I don't feel like I am procrastinating if I make something at least visible to people other than myself.
So, here I am, in California, living out of a suitcase and feeling displaced. Honestly, being away from home is not the reason I feel displaced. Being in a familiar setting, on the other hand, has instilled a feeling of staleness.
I am in a very strange place in my life. I am working for a global company, in position to become only the second person in the world, employed by the same company, to obtain the job title/type that I am training for. This is rather daunting in a company of over 50,000 employees, strategically based in over 120 countries. I have always considered myself intelligent, even if I have dumbed it down at times around friends and colleagues. I don't say that out of bravado, just out of reality. Yet, as smart as I think I am, I feel like I am doomed to fail in my current role. I don't feel smart enough, or experienced enough, or likeable enough, to be where I am.
Anyway, the staleness that I refer to, has been creeping in recently, and I feel that I need something to put in it's place. Something new and exciting, yet ultimately productive. I spend too much time doing things that are far from productive. Suggestions are welcome.
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